This post has been a long time coming, but I simply didn't have the confidence to start writing.
As a young teenager I ALWAYS suffered badly with my periods and finding the right contraception for me. Microgynon worked from a young age up until my early 20's when I started to get periods every other week. I then tried the IUD coil, which I loved; no side affects but having it in HURT LIKE HELL! the poor nurse whose hand I squeezed. (i'm sorry if you're reading this...) After over a year of having it in, I had some complications... if you're squeamish ignore this part...but the IUD moved and after hearing horror stories I got it removed. Which left me with only two feasible options left... Implant or Mini-pill.
I tried the mini pill for 3 months but I was so violently sick with it, which is counter productive. So in September 2018, I had the implant put in.
The picture below to the left, where i'm looking pretty lean was taken in August 2018 and the picture to the right was taken a few weeks ago, whilst having the implant in.
In August 2018, my exercising regime was purely weights; heavy and low reps - I loved chucking weights around. My diet, which you can see from my instagram was intuitive eating. I ate healthy 80% of the time but if i fancied something in particular or fancied something sweet I would just have it. At this point I was confident in my own skin, I had gotten rid of the majority of my eating disorder demons and was enjoying food again, no guilt, no bad thoughts. Just happy and comfortable in my own skin.
Once I had the implant in, my diet and exercise stayed the same.
It came up to Christmas and during this period my diet never really changes, shock horror i'm not the biggest chocolate fan, unless it dark chocolate. I usually have xmas eve, xmas day and boxing day eating all of the food and having rest days, then I get back on it with training.
This year was different, I was heading to Australia on the 28th December, so I was rather conscious about being in a bikini, which is why I was stricter than usual. But when I was shopping for bikinis, shorts etc - my 'usual' size wouldn't fit and even though I was training harder than usual and my diet was stricter, nothing was happening.
Anyway, I headed to Australia with my best friend, who is such an amazing role model for me when i'm feeling conscious about my body. Every time I felt conscious she would be there making sure I got rid of those thoughts and enjoyed my self - the best thing is I don't think she even knows how much of a positive body influence she is on me.
Once I came back from Australia, I got myself back into a new gym, Fitness Space Cardiff and had a whole new motivation. I hit the gym hard Feb - April, started boxing, got myself into classes and cleaned up my diet, I stopped doing weights and focused more on HIIT and boxing.
Despite being the fittest I had been in a long time, I was STILL piling the weight on. At this point I was officially the heaviest I have ever been in my life and I had put in total 3 stone on since September.It was crazy, I couldn't get my head around it, I was doing everything that needed to be done but still I was walking around with this massive bloated belly, after getting engaged I honestly feared that someone would ask me if I was pregnant - thats how bad my bloating became on a daily basis.
After I started to come on my period every two weeks, I went back to the nurse, explained my situation and my struggle with bloating, but she sat there and told me the implant COULDN'T make you put on weight and that it was me. Instead she gave me the pill to take alongside my implant...great more hormones.
I became a different person, I was uncomfortable in EVERYTHING I wore, I became more sheltered in myself, I hated exercising because I felt I wasn't getting anywhere. I started to feel myself getting in a bad place again, about my appearance and about food. I spent years and years battling my eating disorder and now within a few months, those thoughts were at the forefront of my mind again. I started skipping meals and over training, but still nothing. I became obsessed with weighing myself again and crying when there was no change. My mental health was at its lowest, but luckily my family and fiance could see the route I was heading down and intervened.
We researched and found I wasn't the only person who had piled the weight on because of the implant, most people who I read about put on between 30 - 40lbs. Why wasn't this publicised enough and why was the NHS nurses telling me that putting weight on is not a side affect.
Finally in June, me and my mam went to the nurse to get my implant taken out once and for all, even when talking to the nurse she was adamant it didn't make you put on weight. So I made her weigh me today and then look back through my records for my weight when I started, at that point she couldn't deny the amount of weight I put on and proceeded to take it out.
3 days post having it out I lost 4lbs and my bloating had reduced significantly.
I'm still trying to come to terms with the amount of weight I've put on but now I know the cause of it, I'm being sensible, training hard and aiming to lose 1-1.5lbs per week.
My metabolism has slowed right down, so I will need to speed that up again by eating small meals little and often. Overall, I'm just happy to have it out, I feel like a different person and instead of focusing on my weight I'm just enjoying being the fittest I have been in a long time, I know the weight will drop off in time but I'm not being obsessive about it.