How social media helped me recover from an eating disorder
Many people social media is toxic and can lead to unhealthy body images and anxiety. In a way, i think a lot of social media can be bad; i rarely use facebook & snapchat anymore - all anyone ever does is portray their best selves, which isn’t reality. But i’ve always stayed on instagram; the people i follow are REAL - flaws and all so i think instagram is different.
I started my instagram because i started to get really into healthy eating and creating different dishes. At the time i started this i was going through an eating disorder. I was eating one small meal, just enough to get me through the day, but i was constantly tired, pale and malnourished. So a friend suggested i use it as a food diary, which is how it started out. I’ll admit for a few weeks doing it i made things i wouldn’t eat, i made them just so they’d look good on the gram, but once i made them i binned it. I was still struggling to eat a lot of the food myself.
By combining my healthy eating with weight training i began tasting my own creations and actually enjoying them. That’s when i decided i didn’t want my page to be like every other, i wanted to be real, open and honest.
Everything i started to make from that point on i forced myself to eat, then the more positive feedback i got the more i started to enjoy posting and eating my own recipes.
I started to feel guilty if i didn’t post, because that meant i hadn’t eaten. So by pushing myself to post everyday, it meant i ate everyday and the more i ate, naturally the hungrier i became.
Starting my food page on instagram really was the catalyst for my recovery. It provided a platform for me to be open and honest, a form of self-therapy - it helped me fall back in love with cooking and most of all eating!