This year has been a year of complete ups and downs for me.
It started off with an amazing travelling experience to Vietnam and Malaysia with my two best friend which I will never forget, I left my job of 3 years which caused me anxiety and depression and moved to Gloucester for a fresh start… all started great right? Until being in Gloucester on my own affected my depression, the job wasn’t a great atmosphere either which didn’t help and I continuously got under minded for working my ass off every day. Although I made 3 best friends in Gloucester I decided to move back to Wales and start a new job.
During this time, I was going through a rough breakup which devastated me! I'm usually the ice queen and not bother by such things, but this one hurt me bad and I'm still getting over it. But I've FINALLY learnt that I am worth so much more and I deserve to be treated right, so he wasn’t the right man for me and I'm ok with that now.
Looking back on the year, I NEVER regret anything. Everything that happens, happens for a reason. The bad times have allowed me to build myself up stronger than ever before and I have made the best memories this year which I will never forget.
I have learnt to be on my own and put myself first for a change, I can't stress how importance self-care is! Its helped me battle my demons to the point where I have less and less depressive moments than ever and my anxiety is at its minimal. So take some time to yourself, don't want to go out? Then don’t. Learn to say no to things you DON’T WANT TO DO! Its ok to have a night in put your PJs on and binge watch Netflix. You don’t have to justify it to anyone.
I am finally in a job which appreciates how hard I work and this time next year I will be a qualified Solicitor, in a field I love. It's something I have worked so hard towards achieving and being a girl from a small town in Wales, finally I can see a future in law which I deserve because I am good at my job and it's something I have always wanted.
Don’t ever give up on a goal and settle yourself in to a job because it pays well, it's convenient etc. Don’t live your life for the weekends. Do something you TRULY enjoy!
When it comes to my fitness goals, this year i have gone back and forth about cutting, trying to get lean and due to some comments stop gaining muscle and being ‘manly’ - now i’ve learnt i LOVE being muscley, it gives me curves, it gives me more confidence than being an anorexic size 4 ever did! 2018 I plan to get bigger and stronger because that’s how i love being. Tailor your fitness goals to you and not anyone else.